10 things I should start doing to become the best version of Myself.

Not every achievement needs recognition from others. Some victories are personal and quiet. Even on the days you choose not to end your life is achievement. Getting through a hard day, completing a task, or choosing not to give up are wins worth acknowledging.

There are days when I feel emotionally exhausted. Instead of ignoring these feelings, I’m learning to listen to them. When I was 19 I as diagnosed for a depression, at that time I am working for whole year without any fail at my score, I am working like a Company dog, no absenced and late even I am sick and at the same time I am studying face to face classes. My body can't take it anymore, my body collapsed, I experienced dizziness for 2 weeks, no appetite and lazy move, I am so stress since I can't to to work and school, forced to drop out since I need money for tuition fee. Fast forward I go to province to have some rest and peace of mind. After thinking through my time on the province, I realized I am being to much on myself. Rest is not laziness. Taking care of my mental health is necessary if I want to move forward.

I often want instant change. When progress is slow, I feel discouraged. But I’m learning that growth happens quietly, through consistency and patience. One example here is for me to successful at work, I am being frustrated as I cannot get promotion but there was actually a reason for that, for me to grow and learn. I have so much time yet I feel like I am being chased. Small steps matter. Even when I don’t see immediate results, something is still changing within me.

I am very hard on myself. Every mistake feels like proof that I’m not good enough. I replay my failures repeatedly, convincing myself that I should have done better. I blame myself for beeing too easy to give up on something when others can do it even they struggle as well. What I’m trying to do now is respond with compassion instead of criticism. I remind myself that mistakes are part of growth, not evidence of failure. Being gentle with myself doesn’t mean avoiding responsibility, it means allowing myself to learn without destroying my self-worth. I am learning that not every has the same situation, I am learning to not invalidate my situation and feelings.

Comparison has stolen so much peace from me. I compare my job, my financial situation, my achievements, and even my happiness to other people. Seeing others succeed faster or live more comfortable lives often makes me question my own progress. What I’m realizing now is that comparison is unfair, not just to me, but to my entire journey. Everyone starts from a different place. Everyone carries struggles that aren’t visible on the surface. Just because someone else seems ahead doesn’t mean I’m behind. I’m learning to focus on my own growth instead of measuring myself against others. My life doesn’t need to look impressive to be meaningful. I’m allowed to move at my own pace. Letting go of comparison is difficult, but it’s necessary if I want to grow without constantly feeling inadequate.

Loneliness has been one of the most constant emotions in my life. I don’t really have friends I talk to every day but I have my coworkers that we have boundaries so you really cannot vent out to them when every thing feels heavy, and there are times when the silence around me feels overwhelming. There are days when I wish I had someone who would check on me, someone I could share small moments with, or someone who would simply listen. For a long time, I believed that being lonely meant I was unlovable. I blamed myself for not fitting in society beauty standard, for not being outgoing enough, or for not having a strong social circle. But slowly, I’m beginning to understand that loneliness is not a measure of my worth it’s just a season I’m in or a phase for every girls on their menstrual cycle. Instead of hating myself for being alone, I’m learning how to be comfortable with my own presence. I’m learning how to reflect, how to understand my emotions, and how to become someone who doesn’...